Yesterday at church, in between glazing over and thinking about baby, I caught something profound.
Q: Why is the how so important to God that the what is often delayed?
A: The how gets us to who He wants us to be.
The How.
We have lived the how and are still living it. Despite fighting the how, it does change us.
Measuring the How in our lives.
34 candles lit - one every Sunday - for her. For hope. In faith. With improving patience. That she is well and she will come safely to us someday.
14 ugly cries that took me from point A of panic, sadness, and despair to point B of improved understanding, clarity of mind, communication in my marriage, plans for the future.
4 ultrasounds and 6 rounds of Clomid. Several reality checks and reminders that life is a complete miracle, our bodies are fragile and children are beyond value no matter how they come to you.
1 husband moved from reluctanct to ready.
By any measure the How has changed both of us forever.
~A
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About Me
- Me. Us. She.
- J and I have been married for almost 15 years. We have shared many adventures and a lot of watershed moments. In 2009 I began blogging and in 2010 we adopted our daughter from Ethiopia. In March of 2012 we began the process to adopt a little boy from Haiti. This blog follows the many twists and turns on the road to our two children and beyond.
Excellent measuring! :)
ReplyDeleteI think about you every day.
Love, Sara
In our adoption experiences, every time the HOW has included a ((painful)) wait for the WHAT.....the blessings were multiplied!!!
ReplyDeleteHang in there sister, these labor pains will soon pass~~~
:)
Michelle
And, she will change you even more when she's in your arms for the first time. Everybody tells you how life changing it is, but they're not doing it justice...you go from being the center of your world to all of a sudden only mattering in that you're HER rock, HER stability, HER mother.
ReplyDeleteThe how changes us and the WHO will change you even more.
yes, exactly.
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