I remember entering this particular giveaway. It was on a day back in December when I had been doing a lot of ugly crying of my own. Julie asked for guesses on how many times she would cry ugly happy tears during the holidays. Apparently she experienced 18 full ugly happy cries.
I am looking forward to some ugly happy tears of my own.
And I think (I hope!) I'll have reason for them this week. It is hard for me to get too publicly excited. Especially after 2 or 3 disappointments this past year. But it does sound like this time will be different. We are almost there. So so close.
Until THE moment though I have been engaging in my own special nervous excited behavior.
1. Overtalking (basically involves chattering away at J the second he gets home while following him around the house - sometimes incorporates twirly 'soft socks on slippery wood floor' spins of nervous excitement.)
2. Chocolate eating. This happens both during sad nervous and nervous excitement. J gave me a brilliant V-day gift. Chocolates presented inside a completely EDIBLE chocolate heart container. Yes, a thick, dark, heavy chocolate heart that looks like a container but is actually yummy goodness.
3. Biting all skin off of lower lip. Ick.
Once in awhile I feel paralyzed by anticipation. I have never anticipated anything in life as much as this child. I'll be focused, working, being productive and then ... paralysis. Completely paralized with anticipation. It doesn't last long but is very debilitating....