Every tree limb overhead seems to sit and wait, while every step you take becomes a twist of fate.
Up on the watershed, standing at the fork in the road...

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News Finally

We got the news today. Little T is not meant to be ours.

I think we're handling it well. We prepared ourselves for the possibility over the last two weeks. Preparation didn't make it less sad to take her photo off of the refridgerator tonight. But I know that being able to see that sweet little face every day helped us to move more quickly through the paperwork, inspired us to daydream about having a little girl running through the house, and made it easier for us to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Or the big brown eyes at the end of the paperwork...

I just hope the other family loves and adores her as much as we would have. I am torn about whether or not I hope she pops up in the blog community. I am sort of peeking around at blogs but haven't learned much so far.

We had a really long homestudy interview today. The one where we each get interviewed individually about our families of origin. Have I mentioned that I love our social worker? She is great and made it so easy and fun. Last interview is on Friday and then we're done!



  1. Hooray to being paper ready in a few short days! She/he is out there waiting!!

  2. Ouch. My thoughts are with you and her. Peace in that she brought you this far. You'll make a wonderful home for a child.

  3. Amanda, I am so sorry. My heart hurts for you two.

    I am glad you are finding good things in your home study visits - I loved that process as well.

  4. I'm so sorry that she wasn't meant to be yours, but perhaps you're right-she inspired you to hurry along to get to the little one that is meant to be yours. My thoughts are with you while you continue on your journey.

  5. Amanda,
    As hard as this is....I just keep thinking of the first little girl in "The Strength of Mercy" story-line....and how God did not leave any loose ends. :)
    But I also know the grief is so real when you start to embrace a child emotionally even though you are not caring for them physically. I just also know the amazing, unspeakable joy of looking back and seeing how it was all part of a plan that I could never have imagined, a plan that brought just the right child into just the right home at just the right time....

    Praying for your heart...

  6. Amanda,
    So sorry to hear what's been going on with you guys. Praying. God is faithful.

  7. Just wanted to check in and see how you're doing today? Thinking of you:)


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J and I have been married for almost 15 years. We have shared many adventures and a lot of watershed moments. In 2009 I began blogging and in 2010 we adopted our daughter from Ethiopia. In March of 2012 we began the process to adopt a little boy from Haiti. This blog follows the many twists and turns on the road to our two children and beyond.