Every tree limb overhead seems to sit and wait, while every step you take becomes a twist of fate.
Up on the watershed, standing at the fork in the road...

If you are new to our adoption blog please take a moment to scroll down to the archives at the bottom of this page and start with July 2009 post "Watershed."


4.12.2010

Eh - no title for this one

Talay is having trauma over my five day absence for work last week.
She's needing a lot of under the blanket snuggling and reconnecting. Should I just stick her in the Ergo?





I am in no great mood to blog.
After hosting rainbows and unicorns on this site for the past 6 weeks, I've turned an irritable corner towards impatience.

I have been dreaming of D every night.

These are the last three nights of dreams:

Night one: dreaming of twisting my fingers in her curls

Night two: dreaming of a stormy night, standing dripping rainwater in the waiting room of an orphanage, asking for her, pleading for her...

Night three: unidentified dreams that kept waking me up with anxiety, her little face running through my mind whether awake or asleep. Woke up crying.

I'm feeling so discouraged that 4 weeks have passed since we were submitted to court and we've heard nothing. I wrote TWO separate blog posts tonight and both are so incredibly obnoxious and snarky and negative that I couldn't even hit publish on either of them. What a waste of time.

I am going to be speaking at the Christian Alliance for Orphans Summit in Minneapolis on April 29th. 4-5pm. Topic is church-church partnerships caring for orphans and vulnerable children in Africa. If you are going to be there please leave a comment so we can connect in advance. I'd love to meet you. I'm also hosting a luncheon on Friday. Let me know!

~A

3 comments:

  1. Aww, hang in there! Hoping that you get are assigned a court date SOON! :)

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  2. Wish I had something profoundly encouraging to say...God's timing is best. I do however, like the new pictures and blog design. Oh, and I've "borrowed" the picture of the "pupkins" to add to my growing collection of dog-related screen savers. Great pic!

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  3. Okay, maybe the Ergo is an option for your pooch. Comfort for him, practice for you.

    Kidding! Kinda.

    My heart is aching for you because I know, know, know the pain during *this* portion of the wait. We received our referral in early September and didn't hear a peep about a court date until mid-December. Only for it to be postponed to the end of February. I really, really get it. And it just plain sucks. Ugh.

    Are you journaling your dreams and thoughts for her? How sweet it will be for her to read about how much you wanted her home when she is older!

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J and I have been married for almost 15 years. We have shared many adventures and a lot of watershed moments. In 2009 I began blogging and in 2010 we adopted our daughter from Ethiopia. In March of 2012 we began the process to adopt a little boy from Haiti. This blog follows the many twists and turns on the road to our two children and beyond.

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